Millions of different thoughts in my mind and here is the place where I not often write it out (Oppps!)

This is just some random person's boring blog and might be update more often than last years!

Cheers! :)

November 16, 2013

Tipsy




I think I just get a bit tipsy.
Too old now, can't really drink a lot now.
sigh...


Well at least now I know what will I did when I tipsy
EMO again.

Well actually I think just sometimes.
Maybe will be funny maybe will be emo.
Most of the time SILENT.




I know I shouldn't have this kind of ideas,but I really can't help it.

Sorry I'm not that kind of person, can let it go so fast.
Sorry I can't help it I fell in love with some I shouldn't have
I should really just leave it alone, and not to talk to anyone.

Should be silent at all...


But I will make sure I will smile in front of everyone

Cause I know everyone love when I smile,when I laugh..
I don't want to let anyone trap in my emotional feeling.
I don't even want to lose somebody again.



I hate it.




God bless me.




Even thought I don't even know they exist or not.
Just want to pray for every gods.
For comfort myself.










I should keep away from this kind of sad feeling.




Hope tomorrow on my blog will be happy as me.





Last time,

I just fell in something I shouldn't .

If you read this, please just ignore what I mean.
I don't ever want to destroy it.



我會努力放寬心不想任何事情 
去成為好朋友的。




請讓我最後一次的任性。




我會再次眺望遠方,




October 22, 2013

Easy. Not,easy.



想说用英文写,但是恍然到英文并不是我的母语,而且连起笔都艰难。
我的母语是什么?我不清楚。
华文并没有很好,英文也不是。
广东话更不用说,说错的比说对的还要多。
马来文连对话都有问题,更不可能是日语。
学了这么多语言,有什么用?
不流利就是个问题。
没有一个语言是最好的。


我到底在干什么,我自己也好不清楚。
心黑黑一片,好迷茫。
杨晓蓓你在哪里?
以前的你在哪里?
我开始想念我自己。



自信呢?
自信你在哪里?
你怎么又消失不见了?
好不容易建起来的信心你不要又离开我。
我没那个胆量再没有信心了。
想起之前过得好黑暗好黑暗。
那种生活我不要。


没信心哪来的谈恋爱。
我这个疯子想谈恋爱想疯了。
我好藐视我自己。
好想有个男朋友,帮我拎重的东西,陪我聊天说说笑笑


不过好难。。好难。。




今天的心情很差。
很沉重。

September 29, 2013

BLIND



I couldn't know what I want,what I need and what I care.
Just.. just all mixed up :(


Want to feel loved, but who will be the one..?


Kind of blind..
Can't see through anything,can't feel anything.

Will the ONE come for me and searching for me now?

What am I suppose to do with that loneliness..


我不能了解自己为什么这么突然的想要一个人
一个让我撒娇 让我依赖 让我谈心


Dress up properly,smile in a whole day

School opening tomorrow.
Hope will be fine at all stuff.


SPEECHLESS.